SpiderWebs

You know those moments where you just don't understand. Along with that you don't know how to communicate in a way where you can say what you think so it wont come out disrespectful or it will make sense to the other people. I those moments. I the webs that satan wraps you in and fills your mind with so you cant think. Your words get mixed and then you feel trapped inside of yourself and dont know how to get out. Then confusion comes and you try to think back to what happened and you look stupid because you cant remember what the heck you were thinking at that time or your plan of how to communicate. I guess it comes with being a teenager but i have had a problem with this all of my life. I this with so much venom because i know that the devil knows my vulnerable points and takes advantage of them. I can feel it and I call on God because i know He is the deliverer and The defender of the weak but it is so hard. I am wrapped in the spiderwebs of deception and oppression but i need to get out and can only do this by leaning on and trusting my Beloved. the one who searches after my heart and loved me first and through Him and Him alone i am able to love Him back. Sometimes it is so hard to love and trust the God who is intangeble and you have no way of seeing unless you go to Heaven (which i havent gotten there but im working on it and praying for it) but that is where faith comes in. Faith is believing in what you are not sure of. I have so little fait yet He gives me grace to build it and gives me the power to preform signs and wonders so that i will increase my faith. God is so mysterious and good and we do not deserve what He gives us yet He gives us all of Him. He is so awesome and aweful that all of my questions end in awe which is the way it is supposed to be. I dont really know why i wrote this on here but if it somehow is stilol here in the End Times and i get martyred bring it on. Maybe i felt the need to write this because maybe it is a confirmation for somebody but whatever it is it is. I the devil bottom line. There are few things in this world that really just tick me off and he is the source of all of them.